Ever since I was a little girl, I used to read all those cute fairytales about a beautiful princess who falls in love with a beautiful prince, and they look pretty together, and they love each other from the moment they meet, no, actually they love each other before they even met.
And so I grew up thinking that some day, my prince charming will come riding a white horse, well, not exactly a horse, maybe a car, or even walk, either way, he would come. As I got older, I realized that my prince will never show up, because maybe he got lost on the way, or he found some else, and thought she was the princess for him.
Either way, looking for prince charming has become the last thing left for me to do. And no, I’m not pessimistic or whatever you might think, I just look around and am disappointed with what I see and hear and feel. It’s not the magic kingdom everyone talks about in books. It’s just lucky people and less unfortunate people, like myself. And no, things will never be how you want them to be just because you think everything is up to you. You will never change the way things move around you, just because you think you can.
Life is not only about you, you will always depend on things and people to make things work, and people will not always be nice and kind to help you out. Not all of us are special and just a few can actually make things better for themselves, just because they are good at something the rest has no idea about.
And no, advice is not needed or welcome. My life does not resemble yours, do not think you know me, do not dare to judge or think you might or will help me in anyway. No two people can, or will ever, have the same problem, or perceive things the same. My life, my feelings, my thoughts, my past, my memories. My way of saying: FUCK THIS!!!